For every...

For everyone who is wondering and for my own personal reference... the type of cancer my sister has is hodgkins lymphoma, and its very curable. So we are happy about that. she's crazy though she is thinking about the color wig she wants... BLUE lol. she's so great.. i love my sister!! :)

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Well, I'm a little bit less depressed now! Except the fact that we found out that my sister does definately have cancer! :( I'm kinda scared for my interview tomorrow. I shouldn't be but in a wierd way i am. OHHH good news.. my aunt has a friend who works out of the house, like some financial thing and he wants to meet me for like some clerical work!! she said it wouldn't be very much.. im guessing like a couple hours a week.. but thats better than nothing!! So, im kinda excited about that. And i had a really good donout today :) and it was all like decorated with pink and red heart sprinkles lol it was really cute.. well thats all i have to say for now.

Is the craziness going to end!!!!!

I just realized something... i have no friends here in ohio.. :( not only that but i have no job.. and i don't go to school.. well for this semester. I'm kinda feelin like crap emotionally because the thing about my ex taking my car.. for some reason.. is just hitting me now.. im so upset. how could anyone do that to anyone?!?!?! i just don't understand. And my boyfriend is in Idaho!! another thing to add to my "fun" life is that my sister possibly has cancer :( and she's only 20! I'm starting to think that maybe i should have stayed in NJ but i dunno. because i had a job there and i was going to school and i had friends.. and uhh i dunno! well i have a job interview tomorrow.. hopefully it will go realy well.. but since i have bad luck it probably wont. I think im just sad cuz i've been surrounded by a 12 and 14 year old. and my aunt.. and my wierd uncle (on the weekends) and the 12 year old is really bothering me right now. I think he is just being a butthead to get on everyones nerves and i don't think he realizes how annoying it is. Ya know how showers are suppose to make you feel better??? How come it never works for me!!!

SCORE!!

i finally found a layout that i liked :) so yeah i think its time for me to go to bed now... today was annoying...grr.. my stupid 12 year old cousin had to get on the other phone when i was on the phone with Kent... and say shit and i only had like 25 minutes on my phone card and matt wasted half of em, oh well. sometimes he can be so fuckin annoying and sometimes he can be soo cool.. sometimes i wonder about him.. and i miss my boyfriend way too much!!!

grrr

i hate this stupid fucking thing

hmmm

ok i just wanted to make sure this shit still workd.. im gonna get back to this when everythings all set up lol

yoo

so i haven't written in my journal in like a year in a half so now im writing cuz i duno why...and i haven't anything to say.. um i have to work like 5 days this week i usually work 4 which doesn't seem like that much of a difference but it is..its a big difference!!! and um...i been doing some boring things..got my lisence..that was exciting and um...i dunno...ill talk later

blehhhhh

at first i reallly liked the fact that i had this like hole journal thing...but you know now it is starting to get me mad becuz there are things that i want to put in here that i don't want anyone to see like anyone! and i can't fucking put it in her..gaddammit!!! so anyways...i love when people make fun of me for having an online journal....but anyways.... i don't really have anything to say cuz i want to say stuff but i can't cuz i don't want anyone to know...eeeeehhhhhrrrrr....okbye