today was ok

well i woke up at like 12:40, ate my cereal, watched my show ( yes i actually have a show thats how sad my life is)..the show is 2 guys and a girl.. and its awesome!! lol. but anyways.. um yeah and i helped my aunt a lil with the bathroom cuz we are trying to make it look better..um and then i went to walmart with my cousin elyse, and i got really hungry while we were there cuz we were buying food!! and now the food is cooking oh my gosh i can't wait to eat!!! and um...wut else...i'm talking to someone online.. from HOME and he told me he likes me...tehe.. how come no one ever said anything till i was in ohio? oh well i still love kent :).. but i haven't talked to him in mad long.. oh well i guess.. well byezz

ea...

earlier i was sad for no reason. but right now i feel good.. just sitting here in my UFO's and my bra! LOL i worked out last night so that was good. and tonight i wanna go swimming!!! yay!!!! everyone's telling me they love and miss me that makes me happy :) But i still need to have friends here.. cuz i can't hang out with friends that are like 10 hours away tehe... well um yeah i don't have much else to say!!

basically...

basically nothing has happened. my life here is boring. i miss home. and i miss my mom. and my sister and my cat. but i still feel like i should stay here. its so wierd. like i know im semi-not really liking it right now. but i think that i should stay here until a certain time. i feel like i might have a reason being here but i just don't know wut it is yet. oh well. i just need people to be around me and to know eveyrone cares

a thought for the day

im jealous of you because you are so easily living without me while im over here going insane without you. but maybe you arent easily doin it, maybe you are just good at hiding your feelings....~~~~~thanxs Stevie, stevie wrote this.. you cant take it anyone!!!~~~~~yeah thats not exactly wut i think but its close and cute :)~*~*~*~i looked at our new house today, its fairly big but only a ranch..but its got a basement that i could most likely live in!!! wohoo~*~*~

arg

today kinda sucked.. i had to help my aunt clean out the garage and put shit in the attic.. cuz she wants to sell the house and move somewhere..so like it would have been fine and i wouldn't have minded all that much but we had no heat.. and it is REALLY cold here!! oh well.. im like still frozen. i talked to my mom online for like an hour last night i really miss her :) and she said she is praying for me and stuff. im glad. she also said that she is going to try to get my money some how..with all the shit that happened this past month she thinks i could get some somehow. but anyways.. i don't know wut is going on with certain people.. sometimes they confuze me. Bye

Happy V-day!!!! <3

Well, today was some-what exciting..cuz my aunt got me a present.. she got my cute little heart PJ's :) and some chocolate candy! But then i found out some bad news at like 6 or something.. my mom called and told us that my sister was in the hospital... she was in so much pain last night that she was crying and stuff..so my parents had to drive to philly to put her in children's hospital. and she's in so much pain where she is on this like Morphine pump.. she controls the amount of drugs she is getting!!!! she gets to press a button when she needs more. but anyway she's going to be there for like a week or something. I dunno.. i'm having some semi-personal problems right now.. i need help!!!!!!

YAY

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so my mommy called today! i was excited to talk to her cuz i miss her a lot. But she didn't even recognze my voice!!! that was somewhat disterbing cuz i answered the phone she thoght i was my cousin lol. oh well. i guess she just wasn't expecting me to answer. My sister is home now. I'm really glad all of her freinds care about her so much and shit everyones giving her a lot of love. she has to go through 4 months of chemo and 3 weeks of radiation. I'm really scared even though they keep telling me this type of cancer usually goes away easily or something along that line.. but yeah.... my cousins fight way too much.. today i had to literally sit on Elyse so i could get a note taht she took from Matt.. it wasn't good.. and elyse isn't a small girl.. she's a decent amount bigger than me. lol. well thats all i have to say and that im mad cuz i wanted to take a bath tonight and i didn't cuz Matt used up all the hot water, like always.

hmmm

So today i had my interview at Sam's Club.. it was the wierdest interview i ever went to they asked me strange questions.. but anyways they were like "mass interviewing", if you will. lol and i dunno i said good answers i think. She said within a couple days the managers would call me or wutever so i could come in for more interviewing..if they like wut they see on the paper lol. So, thats that a guess. but im kinda excited cuz i get to babysit a 6 year old on monday!! and this kid is so cute :) OH! i found something els out today.. my aunt is thinking about buying a new house. so yeah..but this one has a full basement that would be realy easy to like "do" you know like with a nice bedroom or something..she said there's a lot of space. So thats good. Maybe if we move there i could get my own room. Its not that i don't like sharing a room..but there would be more space for my shit if i had my own. and i really do like privacy. So im kinda excited about that.. and i really hope i meet my aunts friend with that clerical job shit soon!!! and i can't stop thinking about kent.....

For every...

For everyone who is wondering and for my own personal reference... the type of cancer my sister has is hodgkins lymphoma, and its very curable. So we are happy about that. she's crazy though she is thinking about the color wig she wants... BLUE lol. she's so great.. i love my sister!! :)

yo

Well, I'm a little bit less depressed now! Except the fact that we found out that my sister does definately have cancer! :( I'm kinda scared for my interview tomorrow. I shouldn't be but in a wierd way i am. OHHH good news.. my aunt has a friend who works out of the house, like some financial thing and he wants to meet me for like some clerical work!! she said it wouldn't be very much.. im guessing like a couple hours a week.. but thats better than nothing!! So, im kinda excited about that. And i had a really good donout today :) and it was all like decorated with pink and red heart sprinkles lol it was really cute.. well thats all i have to say for now.

Is the craziness going to end!!!!!

I just realized something... i have no friends here in ohio.. :( not only that but i have no job.. and i don't go to school.. well for this semester. I'm kinda feelin like crap emotionally because the thing about my ex taking my car.. for some reason.. is just hitting me now.. im so upset. how could anyone do that to anyone?!?!?! i just don't understand. And my boyfriend is in Idaho!! another thing to add to my "fun" life is that my sister possibly has cancer :( and she's only 20! I'm starting to think that maybe i should have stayed in NJ but i dunno. because i had a job there and i was going to school and i had friends.. and uhh i dunno! well i have a job interview tomorrow.. hopefully it will go realy well.. but since i have bad luck it probably wont. I think im just sad cuz i've been surrounded by a 12 and 14 year old. and my aunt.. and my wierd uncle (on the weekends) and the 12 year old is really bothering me right now. I think he is just being a butthead to get on everyones nerves and i don't think he realizes how annoying it is. Ya know how showers are suppose to make you feel better??? How come it never works for me!!!

SCORE!!

i finally found a layout that i liked :) so yeah i think its time for me to go to bed now... today was annoying...grr.. my stupid 12 year old cousin had to get on the other phone when i was on the phone with Kent... and say shit and i only had like 25 minutes on my phone card and matt wasted half of em, oh well. sometimes he can be so fuckin annoying and sometimes he can be soo cool.. sometimes i wonder about him.. and i miss my boyfriend way too much!!!

grrr

i hate this stupid fucking thing

hmmm

ok i just wanted to make sure this shit still workd.. im gonna get back to this when everythings all set up lol

yoo

so i haven't written in my journal in like a year in a half so now im writing cuz i duno why...and i haven't anything to say.. um i have to work like 5 days this week i usually work 4 which doesn't seem like that much of a difference but it is..its a big difference!!! and um...i been doing some boring things..got my lisence..that was exciting and um...i dunno...ill talk later

blehhhhh

at first i reallly liked the fact that i had this like hole journal thing...but you know now it is starting to get me mad becuz there are things that i want to put in here that i don't want anyone to see like anyone! and i can't fucking put it in her..gaddammit!!! so anyways...i love when people make fun of me for having an online journal....but anyways.... i don't really have anything to say cuz i want to say stuff but i can't cuz i don't want anyone to know...eeeeehhhhhrrrrr....okbye

yay!!!!

TODAY IS GREAT! Becuz u see i don't have to work..or do anything at all!!!! wohoo!!! :) i have nothing to do today...i think my only "plans" for today are to go to the bank so i can cash my paycheck and get money wooohooo :) :) thats exciting but its only like 50 dollars cuz it is from the week that i went to key west and i worked like 2 days or soemthing like that. yesturday my mother and i went out to try to buy my cousins their birthday presents cuz they are coming to visit on my birthday (which i know sounds weird) but we dont' see them that much cuz they live in ohio so we had to get them presents for their birthdays which were in april and june...lol... and we were in toys r us and i found this great camera..its an advantix...it is sooo nice...if it needs a flash it will be able to tell..like there is no button to put a flash on...and when ur done taking ur picutre it has this digital thing on the back that says wut number ur next picutre is. its sooo great..and it advances to the next picture for you!!! and rewinds for you too!!! im soo excited cuz all the cameras i ever had always had to be rewound by a person and everything that this camera does for you u had to do urself..... tehe...and it was pretty cheap too....on 30 dollars...thats like buying 3 of that crappyt camera that i have that already broke after using it like twice and getting sand in it...so it got stuck..lol it was mad ghetto. so after my mohter and i left toys r us we went to kids r us..and the main purpose was to buy my cousin clothes but instead we bought clothes for me....lol...its very sad that im 17 and still fitting in kids clothes... i don't think its becuz im skinny though...i think its just cuz im kinda short....not that short but kind...the thingie next to the dressing rooms, it was like a ruler only in feet to see how tall u are....well it said that im 5'2" which i always thought until people started telling me that i looked taller so i assumed i was 5'3" but i guess i am really 5'2" lol ...oi don't know ahhhh!!! then mommy and i went to the mall and ate some of that yummy pizza that i always thought was sabarros but when i looked at the signed yesturday...i was decieved....and it said cosimos....oh well..it was good pizza. and then i gut 2 shirts and a pair of khakis and then mommy and i went over to andrews so she could meat andrews parents....so then i just decided to skip guard and stayed at andrews....the end

bleh bleh bleh

. today was nice. i woke up and andrew called me not too much later and came over. Tara and Krystal slept over last night :) aww it was cute and then shawn and Andy stopped by they stayed for a bit....dude shawn has this semi new car...its off the hizzyyy!!!! it is really cool dude.hahaha!!! u know when u parents tell u not to eat or drink near the computer cuz it ull spill and it will get into the keyboard and shit and u are like..please!!! yeah right i so am careful....well i just spilled my soda in MY keyboard...and now im mad..at least it isn't my parents computer.....welll im waiting for andrew to come home from work...bye bye

hip hip huraaaaayyy!!!!!

im off work today and tomorrow!!!!!! :) :) :) :) im so happy.....i been working like a maniac lately tehe. Well yesturday i worked from 11-5:30 and and that like took out a lot of my day considering yesturday was the fourth and everyone starts doing stuff earlier...so like when andrew got out of work....(i have no clue why they made him work at a resturaunt on the fourth of july...that just doesn't make any sense!!!) he came over but it took him like almost an hour or something like that cuz there was traffic becuz of all the fire works and shiznit!.....but he came over for a lil while...and then we picked up tara.. :) happiness!!! cuz i don't see tara taht much any more.....so she slept over...infact she is still here sleeping right now. but i think im going to have fun today.....cuz me and andrew and (hopefully) tara and krystal are going to be exercising wohoo....andrew is turning vegatarian ....or so he says...we'll see how long that lasts...lol well im going to get going now...im still tired cuz i just woke up...but ill be fine...later.....

fun in the sun...

yesturday was great! i was with andrew pretty much all day except when he went to work for like 4 hours..grrr....i wish i could work for just four hours!!!! so anyway..yeah andrew picked up me and his friend and we went to the beach! with andrews sister who i had met the day before (saturday night) along with a bundle of andrews other freinds...they are all very nice. :) so we wentt o the beach and hung out...with andrews sister and andrews nieces...they are really really cute they are 4 and 7! awww the seven year old was hugging me a lot.. she was like "i like you" it was all very cute.....then andrew had to go to work :( but thats ok cuz after work him and his sister and i went to desert works and then we went to the pool place....it was funny cuz his sister got lost in the parking lot tehe (well not really lost but it was funny) she had to drive her car over a curb awww poor dean.... well....that was pretty much my yestruday cuz i have not written in my journal in a while....i don't know i just have no motiviation..ya know? but ill probably write in it tonight cuz im not allowed out after work...i have to go in at 12:30 and im done at 9pm.....grrrrr friggin 8 hour days suck!!!! well........its time for me to start getting ready i think!

im back!! yipppeeee!!!

i was in florida alll week!! but now im back and im a happy camper!! wo hoo!! :-) i was in key west and it was really great! i went with laura and her family.... and i got a lil home sick cuz i didn't have any family there and her grandparents were there and i have no grandparents left...it was kind of depressing... but besides that i really did have a lot of fun! key west is awesome....to most people it is "very layed back" i don't know though...i think it is just a lil calm. there were MOPEDs everywhere....there had to have been more mopeds then cars on the street. Thats like wut people rent there instead of cars cuz it is cheaper...and a lot more fun. i really missed my mommy on the trip so i called her....she was glad to here from me :) I missed andrew too. i got home not last night but the night before...realy reallly late...so andrew couldn't come over... but i saw him last night! he was so happy to see me it really was very cute.. he got me a present and when i got home from key west it was in my bed :) it was a stuffed animal penguin and he taped a real rose to its arm...it was really sweet :) well...momma is yellin at me so that i can empty the dishwasher...cuz she is going to make me tortilinni....but i feel kinda sick...my throat hurts.....and...i have to go to work at 1:15...grrr its quarter of 12....i have to get movin.... i take a long time to get ready.....ggggrrrr......

this is becoming really fun!!!

um yean..for some reason im really really enjoying this!!! this whole journal thing!! YAY

andr...

andrew came online!!! yay! Carole is happy :) but still sad cuz im a sad pathetic loser..........i hate mysefl

i hate those fucking DMV people!!!!

so i had to wake up today like at 7am so i could go to the dmv and take the stupid written test again for the FIFTH time...cuz im just dumb like that!!! and i failed once again...see i knew everthing...it makes me so fucking mad! i really did know everything that i thought a had to know...then here comes this damn test and im blank!!!! ::::tears::::: and i need to pass the test before july 26..which is when ill be seventeen and i NEEd to get my liscence then! you know!?!?! sooo grr..and i want to talk to andrew..but i think he is still sleeping ::sadness::: i want him to wake up! he would help me!